roses and butterflies

Written & dated; just for you.



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Thursday, July 31, 2008
i'm coming for you.

Perhaps it was a good day. Another lovely Thursday (: Hahaz, nothing much happened. But i promise, I DID NOT SLEEP IN ANY OF THE LESSONS! Yay, 'cuz no geog, chinese was all about ting xie, science was important. Yeaps, see. :D

Heheh. Oh well, went to watch the match at SingaporeBasketballCentre with Sarah&Natalie. &what a longgggggg ride from YCK till there! Rawr. 'cuz they had their first national match against Dunman High. Exciting match can (: Though we lost by just 1 point, at least i thought they did their best. Could see their panting faces & how breathless each of them were. Haha, Sean Wong & Nicholas were still not back from their HFM MC, so yeah...though they weren't around, the team played well X) Praise the Lord! We took cab back with Mandi & Li Pin (: &it was just 1 minute before peak hour! Hahahhaa.

Got back to school, and sat around slacking & chatting. Haha, finally got to talk to Denise, proper conversation! X) Left school around 6 45, reached home 7 :P

somebodyjusttotallyfreakedmeoutatthatpointoftimeyaknowlikezomgsooutoftheblue!

Yay. I'm gonna sleep early today.

Loves.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

broken.

best friends are siblings, that God had forgotten to give us.


I DESPERATELY NEED TO GO SHOPPING WITH MY GIRLFRIENDS ALRIGHT.
It's been a darn long time ever since the last time we went out together. Gah. &shopping, as in shopppingggg = clothes. Not the nearby Cheers or the stupid boring AMK hub ): Far East, Cini, Bugis Street, wherevah!

Boohoo. I seriously mis my dear Denise Ramos loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads loads

i never knew it could fade just like that.




Time&time again... i just start to think of ex classmates and schoolmates. I wouldn't say that we've drifted. I'd probably use " not as close ". Sigh, i can't wait to go for pg tomorrow. I feel uber helpess these days. Oh & MrrrrGarrryyyPehhh ( i'm still used to calling him that, haha. ) came back today (: I didn't know it was him though, but managed to take a picture wit him :D Still the crap teacher, gah, Denise! Not my fault ): hahaz. Upload other pictures later, lazy.

&Sean's stupid exams and tests are going on right now, long time no had good talk with bestie! Haha. All the bestttt (:


/edited
Feel ubah guilty haha, most of my posts recently are like soooo low low low. Well, i'm just uber worried about the coming exams 'cuzz...i haven't been very attentive or hardworking lately. Should have paid attention in class :/ Hahaz... Hmm, today was fine. Just like any other boring days luh. Managed to understand maths&science alr. *woots* But i still don't like her. Damn it! There's tuition later, so i'm not gonna feel sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy but clear all my doubts for the stupid graph thing. First exam next monday, ENGLISH! Haha, nothing to fear but summary might be scary. Gah.

i forced Gerald to do the heart. Damn cute uh :D haha.

okay look at the height differenceee...i thought i'd be able to see his bald head :/

&AMADEA! I want you to get well soon also ): Why are close friends getting HFM one by one. Darnn. I still planned to give you&chu a big hug tomorrow ya knowwww! Haha. Iloveyouuuu<3
I'm talking to MingHan. Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :DD Finally, it's been months oh damn it.
/so it hasn't been going well...I don't know...i need you so much.

Tuesday, July 29, 2008
when He's just a prayer away<3

So many things have been happening. Good, bad. Oh well, i've got loads of things/people to pray for. Guess some are private (: I'm not worrying over unecessary things, i'm just thinking and asking myself things i shoud know. Sigh, lots of issues have been affecting people...&me.

Your guidance, &wisdom...to bring me through.

'cuz i don't want to disappoint you each time...


Was quite a happy day today, that's when it spells trouble to people around me. Lol. So i'd normally go all insane high & crazy, you'll find the emo me hours later. Conclusion : Jermaine can't stay high for long, the most? 5 hours? Ha.

&guess what? Ms Jobeth Pan reads my blog, she somehow hinted me in Literature class today, and i managed to guess it right. Haha, &i've gotta 27/30 for Lit! *hoorays* (: I'm trying to act happy, 'cuz i don't want to blog halfway and delete everything... Nothing much happened during the entire day, i would say.

Except during maths class, SHE made me boil. I can't believe that you're even a teacher lah. Since you don't even have the patience, you don't even need to bother to teach us at all. I miss Miss Claudia Tan...she was the only one that bothered to explain a thousand times to the class, even if we don't understand. &SHE goes "2nd express class" and all that shit, just 'cuz of this pathetic class position, we're like doubted 'cuz we can't even do certain sums. Whatever lah. Our whole class might just fail, damn.

Oh well, did the most retarded things in school :/ Imitating Jovi by pulling my socks way above the ankle, carrying the bag like uberb high. Haha, Jovi wasn't angry ((: Yay ily bestie! Haha. NDP was stupid. Alright i think i've dragged this post long enough. Damn, i'm not in the mood. I'm sorry love.

;&i had lunch with Sarah today too (: Finally. Haha. Hey dear! I finished your letter on the bus today already! Almost vomited okie? Haha. takecaree <3

Monday, July 28, 2008

Today was probably one of those stupid, low, pathetic, frustrating days ever. Got so pissed with myself, friends, teachers. Damn, & even threw tantrums. Man...sorry people. I thought that my grades were gonna drop like seriously. So decided to study hard, since afternooon. Haha, felt kinda guilty. Skipped locker prayer, 'cuz headache was getting worse. Study with a headacheeee ya know! Never fall asleep :D *yay*

I'm gonnaaaa study hard. I'm gonna pay attention in class. SMS-ing no more! Weeee. There's NDP tomorrow, off i go!

&i miss you Denise! :P

lovees.

<3 life. Life is good.

I was there, when the sun wasn't shining. When the pain was blinding you, those tears and fears...Never give in to sadness that surrounds you, find a way...reach deep inside and just let your love shine through. 'Cuz tomorrow is just a lil step away, i'll be there to help you start believing love again... Tell me that you're waiting, waiting for that happiness. Is there an easy way into your heart? Must be some ways where we can make a start...

I am for real and i'm just a step away. &when u leave the pain from past behind, you'll see the world in a different state of mind. I will be there, waiting to see your smile...'cuz tomorrow is just a little step away. I'll be there, to help you start believing love again. Tell me that you're waiting, waiting for that happiness. Please seal the lights, our hearts take flight...

yes it's you.

IT'S NOT THAT I DISLIKE YOU TOTALLY. YOU JUST GOTTA KNOW WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME TO TALK TO ME, OR EVEN ASK STUPID QUESTIONS. I'VE GOTTA LIMIT TO MY PATIENCE, EVERYBODY HAS IT, Y' KNOW. I'm pissed.

Lord, teach me how to forgive & forget. I don't want to hurt anybody for no reason.

Sunday, July 27, 2008
dreams; ha.

Did i mention the two dreams i had last night? Alright here it goes.

1 ) I dreamt that i was walking to the toilet, and i saw my mother's room door half open. Then i saw her reading the word of God, and i was uber shocked&happy so asked her about it. She kept the Bible under her pillow & chased me out of the room. ( how i wish this would come true((: )

2) Somehow, this dream & the first dream are sort of connected. But i just can't remember how they are linked though...I dreamt about netball. All the netballers of KCP. &we had this gathering, so somehow we invited our opponent. I forgot which school. And Cherie was in their team, i was stunned & went like wondering why did she join our opponent...then

MY MUM WOKE ME UP OH DAMN IT.

&speaking about netball, fun fact : i was almost kicked out of the school team 'cuz i couldn't control my emotions properly ):

Haha. KimJuEun. I decided to write a letter to ya. 'cuz seems like Chu taught me, that's the best way to communicate, heart to heart. Haha. We're drifting, but don't worry, it's not more than 5 metres yet :P

i'm in second place; to get a second chance.


I miss Sarah. Help.

Saturday, July 26, 2008
city shopping.

YES I'M HAPPY TOODIE DOOBIE LALAH RABALI HAPPY! Woots.

Today i went shopping @Fareast. Supah happy 'cuz i was the only one that bought things, &i bought twooooo! Hahahaha. To think a fussy freak like me can find something i like :/ Heheh. Long time since i went shopping & really SHOPPING, not window shopping. Thanks to NDP lah, tsk. I bought an overall & a pair of sandles :D Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Ooops, is CheeseSausage with mashed potato included? Haha.

I'm happy. Wee. Veh happy. Yes. &i finished my chinese compo, i did it in sooo many hours. Hahahaha. My cousin is sad, i'm sad. So i talked to her bout God, &she said she'll think about it[: ahhh, you're gonna be in my lists of loved ones that i'll keep on praying for cuzzie! &Yee tat is amazing. He said he's " recovered " after one day from HFMD! Yah right :P Only fools will believe you okie, haha. &Xiaoningggggg! Now your turn huh, you take care okie later Jonathan heartpain ya know. Dick, you tooooo :D HFMD sucks ): It's causing people around me to be sad&painful.


Zzzz. I'm off now. Heheh.

Friday, July 25, 2008
i pray that you'll be well.

TAN YEE TAT! Get well soon lah! Take care of yourself okay! :D

/Father, please bless him&all that contracted hfm, with good health & i pray that they'll get well soon.

Thursday, July 24, 2008
bouncing all the way, love.

Oh & i'm veh happy today :D

Lots of reasons why, i shall keep it private. Hahahahah. I love Chu & Amadea lalalalalala. X) See! Both of your fav colours :D

&i sang Start Of Something New with Jovi today, had so much fun lah! (: 'cuz we both were bored during rehearsal. Weeeeeeeee. I'm suddenly so into singingggggggggggg. Haha. I'd hate to say this but i'd have to admit, Jovi Ho, you've got a great voice X)

i pray that they'll be well.

GET WELL SOON NETHANEL & BRENDI! :D

/Father, watch over them please(:

Wednesday, July 23, 2008
ms atherton :D









Hi. I'm Miss Atherton. I'm blueish. Woots.
Hahahha, found my KCP pe shirt lah! Damn happy, my house is Atherton :D name of one of the founders thingy. Heheh. First day of primary school, each of us were allocated to different colours. I was uber happy when i was sent to Atherton house :D Teacher wondered why i " yes! " too. Heheh.

Oh & i forgot to blog bout last night! So important ya know. Hehe, went for dinnah with family @ Raffles City. To celebrate my sissy's birthday. SISTER i meant. Weee. Ate at this Japanes Marche, forgot the name. Blekhh. Nice can :D Took ugly neoprints too -.- &i bought one big packet of Hershey's kisses & gave them all out today! Happy. I gave them to PRINCIPAL tooooooooooooo! Haha. I freaked her out by asking if i could give her a kiss X) The chocolates definitely made my day great, givinggggg is always a joy!

MY SCIENCE TEST. I hope i pass beautifully lah, i don't want a 2upon15 again ley ): Pressure, give me high blood pressure lah. Gosh. & Jrmne was pissed today. Veh! Stupid RHD rehearsal, waste my time. I didn't care & just went off for dance. Hahahaha, at least i won't waste my time right! MsTang got me back during the last five minutes of dance, for the stupid rehearsal. &the volleyball coach thought i was a teacher! Like damn it -.- Am i that old ? ): *cries* Boss! Forget me already is it! Evil...can't blame him. Hahahhaha.

ilovemytuitionteacher. She's so damn adorable although she's 30 plus yrs old. Hehs, yay, PRAYER GROUP TOMORROW! GLADYS & EVIAN ARE JOINING US! WOOTS! :D They accepted Christ ya know ya know! Gladys is starting to believe, but Eviannnn has faith ! :DDD *myprayerworkedonceagain* *hooray*


&to the basketballers :

YO PHSBASKETBALL! Heheh, though we came in 2nd position, it's veh good already :D Serious! I mean like, God has been with you guys all these while, & has brought u all till this stage! :D Take this chance to work even harder, it's really a long wayyyy you guys have came to, till the top 2, trust me.

" Win together, lose together, team mates. (: "
-zac efron.


" If we win, we praise God. If we lose, we still praise God! (: "

-face the giants movieeee.

DO YOU GUYS REMEMBER THESE LINES? :D So cheer up okay! I know you all have definitely done your best ! Don't sad already lah...Given the scores, changing in every minute, i was very confused ya know! But we prayed for you peeps :D Hahaha. (: BeeHappy peeps. At least you guys can jiayou, train hard, play hard, do well in Nationals mah :D Whatever it is, PHS gogooogooooooooooooo :D *smiles*

Tuesday, July 22, 2008
letters of love :D

There's dance tomorrow. Like, *yay* :D Haha... Uh, changed blogskin again! I think it's not as nice as the previous one ): Heck. Anyway, today was stupid. Very stupid. Had a "fathetic" headache. Oh it's taken from " pathetic " :D Grace's panadol & Baby Choo did help! Haha. The bear was ubah cute lah, shall take a pic someday. It was one which Jeremy gave her. Aww, so sweet ((:

First period&second period was the best. BEST. No chinese ya know! Happy happy happy! Have been waiting for this day for months man! Then Literature. Wah first time i ever wrote so much for anything X) Christopher. Tsk tsk. How could i waste my effort&time on a retard like you. Haha. &i don't remember seeing 3 red cars in a row! Hahaha. Neither do i like yellow or brown! I'm getting so out of point, weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Fathetic.

Recesssssssssssssssssssssssss. Blah. Forgot what i ate :/ Oh yeah! Burger with egg. Fathetic. It tasted horrible ya know ): The entire day was perhaps fathetic, thanks to you ): Hmpf. Geography. Whoa this pissed me off for the entire day can. I was trying very hard to pay attention while some unreasonable, inconsiderate, irritating, gay, stupid, attention seeker kept on talking so loudly till i couldn't even pay attention. &still dared to ask me why i pulled sucha long face. *fumes* Fathetic me.

My headache was then back again. Maths! Weeeeeeeeeee. I learnt lots of things :D Paid attention mah. &when Ms Chin was repeating, me & grace wrote letters to each other [: Just like how me & Chu Yi communicate at times. Iheartmygraceeeeeeeeeee. She was so cute lah, all that she wrote (: I kept it nicely in my wallet&file. She wrote a card & asked me to be happy :D Yay i love my braces girl.

So art was a disaster. Imagine how fathetic my flyer was! It was really fathetic bathetic jathetic lathetic you knoww...&my changi airport too! It looked like some long bean with a round bowling ball can! * long bean reminds me of my braces girl. * WHOOPS.

I skipped rehearsal, 'cuz i wasn't feeling well & veh sian le. Hope Ms Tang doesn't scold. Heheh. Tapowed Laksa back for lunch, which totally sucked. I wasted $3.20 ya know. Sad. Fathetic lah. ): The beansprouts were sprouting out of my mouth, disgusting. Fathetic. Boohoo.

&Gladys spoke to me about God today! Ahhhhhh, i'm so glad she's starting to have faith! (: So God really did answer my prayers, yayyyyyyyyy. You go girl! <3>FAPPILY HAPPY!

Alright, i just forced you to go to sleep. I suppose it's my turn now. I don't wanna fall sick, but i won't cuz i'm STRONG! *fappy* I wanna see ya in school tomorrow ):

---------there goes Jermaine. Off to bed :D

loves.

Monday, July 21, 2008
captain's ball ):


Yeah, changed blogskin. Kind of sick of the old one too, but this is just temporary. I don't have time to edit & all that yet, some time later :D Sorry.

Oh well, the best day of today...hmm. PE ! Certainly :D So after months, i finally got to touch a ball again. Super happy, still remembered those times. Captain ball&netball. All that bruises, injuries, scars. But it was worth it in the end :D Kinda miss it, weee. That explains why i don't really complain about that scar on my lip anymore , okay maybe i do, out of the blue. Haha.

Played frisbeeeeeeeeeeee matches too, haha fun lah. There were times when all of us started laughing till we laid on the floor lah! X) The rest of the periods sucked. ESPECIALLY geog. *fumes* lectures here and there. ZZZ.

Science was pathetic, i mean, my marks. Or maybe, me Joy & Jing kai. Me & Joy scored 2/15 Jingkai gotta 1! Can you ever believe it! I laughed 'cuz i just think that was too impossible but yet i achieved it -.- I HAVE TO BUCK UP ):

Stayed back for rehearsal for the RHD, kinda fun in some ways. But waste time ahhh. & yeah i had Fishball noodles, plus 2 fishballs, plus wanton, plus char siew, plus lots of chilli! &i ate it till....i needed water terribly lah. Darn spicy can, but veh nice. Hahahahah.

Okay, i'm like not in the mood to blog anymore.

I'm tired. I'm tired. I'm tired.

I'm pissed with somebody. I'm pissed with somebody. I'm pissed with somebody.

I don't wanna go to school tomorrow. I don't wanna go to school tomorrow. I don't wanna go to school tomorrow.

I am worried. I am worried. I am worried.

--end here. Science test on wed, gotta go study. Shit!


/get well soon pls.

Sunday, July 20, 2008
movie to the end.



I WANT TO WATCH THESE TWO LAH! ):


i was a wet chickkiee.

You’re altogether lovely .
Altogether worthy ,
Altogether wonderful to me...

YO :D

Okay so i didn't blog bout three things.

1) my meet up with ELEPHANT ;D

2) my meet up with BATMAN ;D

3) the wet wet NDP ;D

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1) So i met up with one of my pri school besties :D Presenting...


NG WEI NING :D Haha, had dinnah with her at Macdonalds. &i tell you peeps, don't eveh have dinnah with her 'cuz she's damn freaky! She kept staring at meeee && gave that kind of creepy look, when i wasn't paying attention to her. &she even gave me that kind of look when i was EATING, no appetite X) So she rushed me to blog about her, hahha. Here you go my dear :D

2) BATMAN<3333333333333333333333333333333 rocks more than SUPAHMANNNN!





SEEEEEE! Batman :D &mind you, BARBIE & HELLO KITTY ARE VERY HOT AND CHIO CHARACTERS...Yee Tat said that Hello Kitty is fat. What about mushroooooommmssss? ;DDD Damn, batman was damn hot can. &too bad, he missed me, so decided to look me up! Haha, kidding. At first, the queue was very long, &i was lazy to queue. But in the end nobody there, of course i chiong there :D Heheh, he was veh veh tall...veh! Look at the height difference oh damn it. I WANNA WATCH THE DARK KNIGHT ):

3) NDP WAS WET YESTERDAY. Yeah, wet chickkieee. Haha. We had to dance in the rain ya know ya know! &i expected the audience to leave 'cuz of it, but i was damn touched lah X) There were still loads of people, &they stood, danced, waved. Ahhhh happpy :D Once again, the fireworks made me ubah happy. Damn nice can, even though it was raining! We pulled two lovers together, :DDDD hahahhaha so fun can. &I was tryna make boys understand that they should not be so sensitive. So i did an experiment, i randomly ran up to any guy, &put my hand on his shoulder & went HI blahblah. Only a few ran away. Seeeeeeee. :DD Ubur gay -.- And and and Gerald super cute lah! I made a heart with my fingers for funn, & he did it toooo :DD Then i was bored & said" i love you Gerald :D " he replied " i love you too :D " But of course, we kidding only. Like hello -.- Then Grace don't believe, she said the same thing to him again, &he said ILOVEYOUTOO also. Ahahahahahhaa. We kept repeating it till i bet he was very irritated. Heheh, but i didn't expect him to say it back, so was happy happy happy!


Reached home very late, 'cuz went to tapow food nearbyy. Not me, daddy :D My dinner was veryyyy...not nice. So daddy tapowed


CHAR KUAY TEOW ( THE BEST LAH. DAMN DAMN NICE :D )


ORH LUAAAA; oyster omelette


CARROT CAKEEEEE


Oily stuff, but heck. 'Cuzz....ahahha ((: *shh* Yap, the interview was yesterday. By these two KidsCentral girls, veh cool & scary ya know. Was very nervous lor, but fun ((: Thanks Mr Yeo, for giving me&Daniel this opportunity ((: 9th august, morning, kids central, must watch ah! Hahaha. &took pictures with the designer for our costume, i bet i looked retarded in those pictures. The photographer didn't let us take a look, evil. Me Grace & Joy became MASKRIDERSSSSS. Our make up, haha. Here are the pictures ((:






























Friday, July 18, 2008
smile as you go on(:

IheartDENISESARAHYEETAT 'cuz they made me smile today :D

mushroooomssssssssss

Here...i present youu....

YEE TAT THE MUSHROOOOOM.


i thought this resembled him more. longgggggggggggggggg.


that's how nerdy he looks with specs X)))))



I KNOW YOU'RE GONNA SO KILL MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! serves you right. LOL

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Lord, i need enough strength & guidance from You right now...all these tests are killing me. I'm gonna break down real soon.

Whom shall i fear?
'Cuz i'm Yours....

-casting crowns; who am i.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

/ i'm glad we're both learning how to move on, &you're fine...and going on well too((: i'm definitely happy for you. 5 months has just passed like that.

GONE & BACK.

WON'T BE POSTING FOR A FEW DAYS!

It's time to study hard Jermaine! Common tests are coming up, i can't afford to waste any more time 'cuz i've already wasted loads on NDP. I'm effing tired, but yeah...gotta hold on 'cuz it's gonna be ovah soon!

TAKE CARE PEOPLE ((: i'll speak to you guys in school instead.

i'm sorry faithful reader [:

Tuesday, July 15, 2008


SEAN OWES ME A CARD AND ICE CREAM OH DAMN IT.

So yaps. NDP was stupid, wasted lots of time...at least the time taken to eat my two packets of tuna biscuits with Grace&Joy was still pretty fun :DD Hahaha.

&i think i love Mr Yeo to the super ubahh maxxxXXXzzZzxZ. Teehee, i think he's one of the most important teachers, loads of reasons why. Had a great talk with him on the bus, :DDD

Interview on Sat, shit i'm scared. Nvm, i have God with me anyway :D

Today was probably one of the guai-est school days. I put in effort for my chinese test :DD i didn't put in effort for geog test but still i did okay i dont noe what i'm saying. &i paid attention in maths class! Good uh. Hahaz..

&well...


ALL THE BEST TOMORROW, REMEMBER MY PRESSIEEEEEE! ((:

Monday, July 14, 2008

YOU DIDN'T BREAK YOUR PROMISE! I'MMM SOOOO HAPPPPPAYYEEEE (((:


thanks for not disappointing me! :D




we probably had the fun-est time tryna act cute. too bad it was a Mission Impossible.


no matter what has happened, i treasure this picture the most (: beautiful.


grandpaaaaaa grandmaaaaa, they don't look old as they sound, do they?


2nd auntie & uncle in law. 3rd auntie & uncle in law * stares * at me 'cuz i forgot to take a picture with them :D