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Written & dated; just for you.



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Sunday, September 28, 2008
DENISE RAMOS STAR LIM LOL!

F1! DENISE'S BIRTHDAY! HAHA.

Two happy events :) Aww, Lewis Hamilton looks hotter each minute. :D Enuf of hua chi-ing.


☆DENISE LIM. **

( enough stars right. )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OHKAY.

BE HAPPY! & last long w/ MARCUS! (:

He loves you.

I LOVE YOU TOO :D

I'm sorry i didn't wanna hug you on friday. CUZ YOU WERE BLOODY WET DAMN IT. Haha, *hugs* Get your pressie tomolo kay :) Hope Natalie remembers! Haha.

Saturday, September 27, 2008
TWITWITBIRD

I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE! ( quoted from xxx teacher )

HAHAHA. I'm like, damn desperate to post once again. But my lazy self toooooook over. Okay i'm back WOOSH. Went to Denise's house yesterday, to play? Hahaha! Her birthday's tomoloooo, ahhh happy birthday darling! DENISE LIM.

Yesterday was pretty fun :D Heheh. AND SOME UNEXPECTED COUPLE HELD HANDS :D So the person didnt' expect me to threaten him, here i go. HAHA.

Yay i'm gunnah studaye tudaye. Eew, kinda twittish. Anyway, byee :)

Friday, September 26, 2008
In ballet.



I want these two. Aren't they pretty? :(

Thursday, September 25, 2008
You & I, collide.

All the best people, first exam, first step. Do your best okay (: God bless!

Thanks for the wishes too, you guysssssssssssssssssss too yeah :)

LOVES.

// Even the wrong words seem to rhyme. Moment of happiness, let it go.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

DON'T BOTHER COMING TO MY BLOG FOR THE TIME BEING HAHAHA.

'CUZ I'M LEAVING, NEVER COMING BACK... XD

Your head lah. Wait long long, this entire blog live so long already. I won't murder it just like that. I will keeeeeeeel YO first.

Friday, September 19, 2008
Wo Xu Yao Ni

I feel so...dumb. Stupid. Foolish. Crap. Tired. Stressed out.

Sigh. So many things left undone, with just that stupid EOY rushing up to me. Like as if it's gonna crash into me any minute & i'd knock out. I seriously feel that it's too quick, i'm still very unprepared. Especially Geog, Maths & D&T. All i know bout D&t is filing, lols. I miss Mr Toh ): I guess i'm just gonna fail D&T!

These days been pretty cool and unkewl. Fun yet stressed out periods like ckk's. Urgh, hate her. Imagine you're doing a test and somebody's yacking quacking at your ears, till you can't concentrate. Really had an urge to shut her up this morning during the maths test. Talking about the test, didn't have time to really go through. Guess i'm gonna screw it up too... English was well, fine. Like A1...but i just felt that i should have achieved better ): I mean, it was a very easy compreeeee damn it.

Literature. D&T. Is really giving me hell right now, it's 11.36pm. I don't know how to continue 'cuz i seem so stuck with it, and very tempted to message and talk online. Gahhhh. Decided to blog instead, talking to myself. Haha. Nothing much happened today i guess, just that stupid Gladys don't wanna go for the Taiwan Exchange programme with meeee. JUST BECAUSE IT'S WINTER. That's the exact point of why i'd wanna go! But sigh, don't feel like already.

Walnut cake. Hot milo. ): I'd wanna gooo and lie and sleep right noww. But i guess should finish it now and i'd be free tomorrow ( as if ) Oh man, shall stop posting cuz i think this is a super meaning-less post. God. Wo Xu Yao Ni. Sigh. I hate the exams, cuz it gives me stress. I love the exams, cuz it makes me study hard. Wtf.

It feels like you're gone.
Like practically out of my life.
It's fading darling.
Both you & Sarah...
I'm afraid i can't take this anytime soon.
It may be nothing to you two, but you'd never know how much it means to me.
But i guess God's got His way.

Maybe I'm foolishly overreacting; But being without you I can't imagine. It's just to close to the heart &i won't stand it if we're broken apart.

I'M STINKING BLOODY TIRED NOW.

LIKE DAMN IT I WANT TO SLEEP BUT GOTTA FINISH UP MY WORK. ):

I wanted you baby.

New day. Finally i bothered entering my own blog again ;D

Haha it's been so long can, been veh busy with school stuff & work. I've been mugging till my mugs are all around my tables filled with ice milo water soya bean. HAHA. Chocolates. Potato chips.

YES THOSE ARE SO DAMN NEEDED WHEN I'M IN THE STUDIOUS MOOOD !

Yesterday was ICT. Hate it to the core. Waste time waste effort, BORING!

I shall post a proper post later, i'm off to study. Honestly, i dont' really feel like blogging these days :/ Prolly after the EOYs. Shall see how things would be like (:

*i'm like...pouting right now* Hmpf. YOU LAH. ):

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

& uhm, happy birthday Ministor Mentor Lee Kuan Yew :)

Thanks for helping to rebuild Singapore to what it is today. Haha.

All i need is You.

It's so painful letting go of one whom you love dearly, in such a short time. Or rather, so sudden. Listening to both of your heartfelt words, i could feel the pain you two were experiencing. Even now. God has His plans, no matter how cruel each situation may be for us right now. It would be bitter before it tastes sweet. Why not we just put all our trust in Him, and let things pass ? I really pray & hope that everything would be well, stay strong you two. It's hard and painful, and difficult to go through this. But well, remember, I will be with you buddy (: &of course, God too.

strength to continue.

Monday, September 15, 2008

Wish that i could move on, can't let go it's too strong.

Damn.

I've been a bad girl. I haven't been concentrating well enough for my work, neither did i put in enough effort. I just pray for more strength & determination na. I don't wanna lag & drop! ):

JIAYOU BAH,
JERMAINE LIM.

Sunday, September 14, 2008
Jhermhayhne

A thousand ( not really ) people are at the park near my house right now. Yeah, mooncake festival :) This year's mooncake festival wasn't really celebrated though. Didn't really eat mooncakes or pomelo. Lol. Neither did i light up retarded candles along the pathway, or even paper lanterns -.-

*shiewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww * I'm looking downstairs and it looks so fun lah. Those thingy. Fire something? Well, today was uber tiring alright. I look like some crab cuz i was playing in the sun. Tessa's birthday :) Held at Raffles Country Clubbbb. Fun na, almost took tennis lessons there C: It's a uber big place and it's damn nice, some sort like those hotels. I was kinda sick of waiting downstairs to i went to some quiet deserted place to study :D A room with a pretty table, & chairs, & aircon, & TEE VEE. I was snacking while doing work, while watching teevee. HAHAHA quite a lot of people walked past and went like " 0.0 " ! LOLS. I think it was the card room, oh yeah mahjong room.

:D I studied. YES I REALLY STUDIED AND DID ALL MY HOMEWORK WOOTS<3 Ms Chin's gonna love me. Hahahha! No thanks...Off to dig my maths ws now C:

BYEBYE! Pictures tomollow ;D

Out out out.
























I'm perfectly fine. But not Denise. Hahahah!
Denise + Mucus = Love + Flu + Eew

Long beans.


One of the most retarded thing i ever did. Me & grace were super crazy during maths. & did the stupidest & randomnest things. Folding hot shorts? Drawing insane stuff. Something like those on top. Lols. Her family is weird.
SHE'S WEIRD TOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
that's why we click so well XD

Friday, September 12, 2008
A word. Fullstop. A smile.

So many things have been happening to me lately...It's so damn painful to accept the fact. Especially what's going on. In school & at home. I just gotta be happy, leave it to God. I know He has His plans...But sometimes i really can't stop but think about everything again. Friends like Denise, Gladys, Grace, Joy, Jovi have been with me through these, &i ought to thank them for cheering me up by being retarded :)

I really wonder where these problems are heading to. Are they gonna get better? Solved? Or will they just stay there forever? I don't wanna go through this, nobody understands how stupid & suckish it feels. :( I guess it's probably a different environment in PHS. New people, new characters. You'd be like " Man, this person is kewl & nicee! " Next minute you treat that person as one of your good friends. &you realised that he or she backstabbed you. Right. From. The. Back. I can't accept it. I'm one who treats people real niceeeee if they are niceeeeee. Same case for teachers. But this has to happen... I should try being more unfriendly & anti social damn it.

I went out with Denise & Yee Tat to city hall just now, cuz APS was kinda boring as we didn't have the right dressing to play basketball. We wanted to take pictures, so went to the underground, & Esplanade too. Called random people, watched people dance hip hop, making a fool out of ourselves in public. Sounds stupid & dumb, but i was happy :) Like for once, it disappeared. &when i thought it was gonna be a pretty ending, another issue started. I walked back home, started to think about every single thing that's going on. Lord, i really cannot take it anymore...

Lately, i've been waking up every morning. & i'd be like. I want it to be a better day than yesterday. It did, with my three girls :) I felt happy with them, and that only lasted till school ended. They have their own problems currently, especially Grace & Gladys. But they never fail to give me the support in which i need. :) At sucky times.

It's been years, not months or weeks. Don't you get how stupid it feels to let go & end it? You don't know what i'm going through, but i clearly know how stinkish it is to me. I saw you. I didn't know what to say. A word. Fullstop. &a smile.

I'm ending this post. I'll be happy from the next post onwards :)

Don't ask me why, alright ? You know the answer. There's a reason for everything.

Your Mighty Love<3

HELLO HELLO HELLO * WAVES*

I'm happy! There was the DISC thing again, cool lah. I'm half I & S. Equal! Haha i'm high high high & quiet quiet quiet at times, agree. I think that DISC thingy is very fortune teller nor. Nothing has ever been so accurate bout my character before :/ Haha, now i realise something. I mix with Jovi & Gladys very very well when i'm very I-ish. &feel very happy. But when i switch to the S mode, and start to be very studious, i'd be really pissed with them for making so much noise. Hahahaha!

Random subject but Mr Toh is leaving like damn sad. He's prolly one of the best teachers alright. &i only treat teachers NICELY if they treat me NICELY too. Was his last day, that explains why he was so emo yesterday. He wasn't really himself, and he was so sweet as to help me file the wood (: I'll miss him :/

I don't mind being called Casper 24/7, I WANT HIM BACK. I wonder who's that shit that caused him to transfer! He printed a set of D&T notes for us, for our EOYs...man, which teacher would even bother doing that after he's gonna leave? CKK is definitely not one of them alright. *bleh*

I'm going to pei Denise to APS later, for some funny family night thingy. Now i'm hesitating, should i go! Haha, i shall study now and go later :D Don't wanna pang seh herrrrrrrrrr.

Forever i'll love You, forever i'll stand.
Nothing compares to the promise i have in You.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Blame me. I don't give a damn.

He died the death that we deserve for all the bad things we have done. He took our punishment so that we can be pure in God's eyes.

God only knows..




I shan't really blog bout today. Except all that happened during prayer group (: The main reason for my pretty day. Haha. Well, we celebrated Amadea's birthday a lil earlier. With whipppeeeeeeeeeeeed creeeeeeeeeeameh ! Haha, some seniors attacked her face with it ahhaha. &the entire prayer group has grown grown grown to

21 peepoh

YOU KNOW! ((: Haha, discussed bout the outreach programme for the school. It's basically reaching out to unsaved schoolmates, or even invite Christians, who ain't aware that there's a prayer group. Cuz one of our prayers is for revival in th school :D It's probably gonna start next week ? Haha. I can't wait :D

*claps for God*

So we had lollipops and everything, and we had to write our lil notes. It was sort of an art & craft period, lol! I really hope the entire school knows what those lollipops are for, and not go like " Can i have one more? " -.- That would happen FOR SURE.

I'm feeling very happy today :D Really. Like...i did something for God :DDD

I WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW HOW MUCH GOD LOVES YOU ! JESUS DIED ON THE CROSS FOR US, SUFFERED EVERYTHING ; JUST TO TAKE AWAY OUR SINS. AND GOD WILL NEVER EVER BREAK ALL HIS PROMISES THAT HE HAS PROMISED US, NEITHER WILL HE THROW YOU INTO THAT DUSTBIN. HE'S ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU LOVE. JUST GOTTA HAVE A LIL LIL PRAYER & TADA! :D I'VE CHANGED, AFTER KNOWING HIM. SCROLL DOWNNNNNNN & VIEW HOW I ACCEPTED CHRIST IN THE POST A FEW DAYS AGO ;D

THERE'S A REASON WHY I'M TYPING THIS.
IT'S BECAUSE...

I'M LIVING FOR YOU! :D

*smiles*
Amadea : These lollipops are elements of of revival. * points*
William : Oh...so no more holy water. Holy lollipops! HAHAHAH.

Hahaha! I don't think many people heard what he said, but me & Gladys went like laughing our asses off. Hahaz, our guitarist ;D After that, i stayed back with my chu chu chu chu and roamed around the school with her, so she was my...tour guide? 0.0 Lol! Spent time talkingggg! Woots. She went for her weight lifting after that HAHAHA :D

Just quarrelled with my family, but well...nbm. I've been much of a clown lately. Bumping into things & hurting myself. I KNOCKED INTO THE D&T WORKSTATION THINGY * THAT METAL THING WHICH YOU PUT THE WOOD INSIDE, YOU TIGHTEN TO FILE * Like wth, it's bruised now. Kinda worried if the hip bone will break. BLEH.
I'm off to studeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee right now (:

byebye.

i really love my prayer group members soooo much C:

Wednesday, September 10, 2008
X internet = X Jermaine

FINALLY :D

Internet was screwed for the whole of yesterday, obviously i'd be pissed. I will really dieeee & suffer without internet ya know. Well, nothing much these days. Except i'mma soopah good girl. Studying alright. &for once i understood Geog without paying attention in class HAHAHA.

Lala. The clothes from HongKong & Korea have ARRIVED! :D Woots.

Monday, September 8, 2008
Thousand apologies ):


*edited picture*

Like damn it. I ACTUALLY FORGOTTEN THAT IT WAS CHU'S BIRTHDAY. Alright i'm kinda pissed with myself right now. To think i even noted it on my calender, both hers & Amadea's. & I THOUGHT HERS WAS A WEEK AFTER. Zomg. I'm seriouslyyyy...bleh.


So sorry Chu! ):

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TWO YO YO YO ! :D



I shall add hearts. <> red hearts < / i n s e r t e d a l r e a d y >


Haha, you're not noob at html codes! ((: Ya know you're loved, yes you know! I don't wanna say all that i wanna say in here, i shall tell YO in private :D


I feel odd. Like...who am i to you?

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Painting all my dreams the color of your smile...

It's been a long time :)

So believe me..


I agree with you totally that things for us have been drifting. Apart that's it. Though still speaking to each other, don't you think that it's kind of way different ? The way we talk, emotions etc.. Drifting apart is one sign that normally urges me to bring the relationship back, with whoever it is. But this time, i can't say anything for it. Cuz it's different...

I read it all, how you felt, what you went through. I certainly didn't wanna leave you alone, but what can i do? My actions and movements were all restricted at that time, it seemed like i was trapped and you're just outside of that glass panel, while i was inside.

You say i ain't the cause of it, and it wasn't my fault. But i clearly felt that way...i don't know but that guilt rose each time you're in pain. Nobody has ever made me felt that way before, never. It's like, i want to be there, yet i can't.

There isn't a need to sacrifice or doing so much...I guess it would be best if you move on. I don't know how to speak to you about it again. I really hope you'd understand.

God, tell me. Tell me what's going on, what to do.

It's another pretty Sunday morning (: I'm unable to be in church right now, but PRAISE THE LORD still :D

I didn't sleep well yesterday, had this " nightmare " which i don't wanna tell. It was really very ridiculous okay. Oh well, i haven't been studying hard enough. Cries. Shall studaye later!

YOU. SLEEP.

Saturday, September 6, 2008

I was about to publish the longest post i've ever written. But i deleted it.

Crush.

♥Footprints in the sand.
It's yours...

Got my darling phone like finally. My sms is bound to burst like shit manxxzxxz. Cuz the keypad is smooth & soft, so i'd like fjoerhgoehgoep then new message then ejgoerhutbof again then the cycle goes on. Haha, i thought it sucked & was uber small at first. But now, i think it's prettifool :D


I'm upset. *pouts.

Friday, September 5, 2008

























Ya, my fault. My fault. My fault.
Whatever man.
I thought you understood me most, what was i thinking.
Don't message me.
I don't wanna talk to you.

Thursday, September 4, 2008
Hugs up for grabs.


Hugs are important assurance of love.


Family, Friends, Boyfriends/Girlfriends.


I'm wondering when would i be able to hug God..?

We'd feel darn protected & warm :D

No worries.


Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Because of who You are.



Yes baby, wait for me. I'm coming for YOU! ( LOOK UP THERE )

He's so pretty alright. Haha, bought it already, but well, only can get it on Friday since it's OOS right now. Kinda sad...But it's totally WORTH IT! For some noobs out there, in case you're wondering what model this is. Hahahaha, Sony Ericsson W980i, say hello to it :D

I was deciding whether should i get the iPhone or this, i took an hour to decide. YES. AN HOUR. Cuz i thought the iPhone was uber cool, and ALMOST bought it till i found out that it doesn't support MMS services, & that the bluetooth is only available from iPhone to iPhone. So i thought bout the other disadv like

1) It's bulky damn it.
2) SO NOT user friendly.
3) I already have an iPod, what for? :/
4) The trend will be over real soon, and out of 5 people, 3 are carrying this right now -.-
5) I can't change phone for two years ):
6) Just because it's cool? No thanks...
7) MUMMY SAID I'M NOT ALLOWED TO USE THE INTERNET!!!!! WTF.

Hahahaha. Yeah, that's it. And at that point of time when i decided to get my prettyprettydarling, the last one was sold! I was like eyeing that guy for so long, didn't expect that to be the last oneeeeeeeeeeeee! &i really have this liking for black flip phones. Don't you think it's just soooooooooooo damn stylish. Haha. Lucky there aren't any pink ones, me & Denise can be the bimbo twins man! LOL. * imaginee...barbie-like bimbos. 0.0

----end of story----

Haha, yay. Feel so great, i finally manage to kick off the blogshop addiction :D Finally back to blogging! Kind of guilty you know! (: I received this email not long ago. Read it :


Cell phone vs. Bible
Ever wonder what would happen if we treated our Bible like we treat
our cell phone?

What if we carried it around in our purses or pockets?
What if we flipped through it several time a day?
What if we turned back to go get it if we forgot it?
What if we used it to receive messages from the text?
What if we treated it like we couldn't live without it?
What if we gave it to Kids as gifts?
What if we used it when we traveled?
What if we used it in case of emergency?

This is something to make you go....hmm...where is my Bible?
Oh, and one more thing. Unlike our cell phone, we don't have to worry about our Bible being disconnected because Jesus already paid the bill.
Makes you stop and think 'where are my priorities? And no dropped calls!
==========

Knock, Knock I knocked at heaven's door this morning. God asked me...'My child, what can I do for you?' And I said, 'Father, please protect and bless the person reading this message.' God smiled and answered...'Request granted'. If you believe, send this to seven people and the one who sent it to you. By doing this, you have succeeded in praying for eight people today. 'Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.'
THIS IS PRETTY NEAT,

Place your mouse on the E below and drag to the U.
E ven though you can't see Him, GOD is there for yo U

When Jesus died on the cross,
He was thinking of
YOU! :D

Haha...I don't know, felt like posting it (: Our Father in Heaven is ubah cool manxxZxzX. See, He always creates smart & cute peepole with weird sense of humour, to create such sweet emails so that the world knows His love for us! :D *PRAISETHLORD*


I was in tuition today, and it's like a total out of the blue when i suddenly thought of posting how i came to know bout God more ( when i was NOT paying attention to the topic on Volumeeeee! )Haha. It's 11.35pm now, and i don't intend to go for remedial tomorrow. So i don't mind staying up to post bout it C: At least i can share with the peepole whom are reading this! LOOK, I'M SO NOT SELFISH RIGHT :D

WHAT'S GONNA BE BELOW, IS ABOUT MY LIFE. SO YOU DON'T GIVE ANY SARCASTIC COMMENTS, WHATSOEVER OKAY. &YEAH, IT MIGHT BE A SENSITIVE TOPIC FOR CERTAIN PEOPLE. UP TO YOU.


Okay so i was like enrolled into KCPPS, yeah Christian school. I seriously knew 00000 about God or Christianality at first! & i didn't even know that i was in a Christian school till i was like around P2 damn it. Every morning would be those devotions, and at times i'd go like the bo chap attitude " Lol whatever. " &start rattling off like some chatterbox with a loose screw. Toy with a loose screw, not up there.

Haha, and for 2 years, my class was sitting just right behind the OHP ( at that time, now visualiser ) Me & my friends would be gossipping and laughing at the teachers. Like " Her hair so funny. " " She look like man. " Haha look at that big ugly mole. " Yeah, i still remembered very clearly. How evil of me ):

Things went so lalala till around Primary 4. Hahaz, my class was sitting...hmm, around the middle if i'm not wrong. I mixed with a wrong group of friends, & often felt left out in their stupid conversations. Yup, that's when i started to pay attention to devotions! Haha, had loads of questions on my mind.

" aww, what's/who's God? "

I was really very " WHO'S GOD " Kind of thing. Like, WHO'S GOD. Ya know.

Haha, so yeah. Started to believe, but seriously, my spiritual life didn't grow. All i knew was : Hey there's somebody up there called God, He sent His son to die for us. &you know, He loves us.

Yap, that's it.
Haha, i didn't behave like a Christian. I didn't know much. I backslided loads of times. I didn't love God or put Him in first piority in my heart. Until now :/

Haha, see! Instead of Zhonghua, i chose PHS 'cuz one of the reasons is that it's a Christiannn School (: That's when i finally grew up can. Decided to think wisely, goals, life, things like that. &everything went uber well for me, and grew even more spiritually when i met

TAY CHU YI!

Somehow, i felt like God's ALWAYS speaking to me through her, reallyyyyy! &she's such an influential person who made a great impact on my life okay. :D I can say that, she's the wisest person i've ever ever ever met. Prolly 'cuz i failed to notice who are wise hahahaha!
She's the first one to bring my r/s with myDADDY IN HEAVEN closer. &i ought to thank her.

Th-Th-Th-Thaaaank EEW Chuuuu♥ (:

Haha, so she pulled me into prayer group. Not say pull, hmm...convinced me. I was cooking up funny lame excuses to not go, 'cuz i know that i'd feel uber extra there. &things will be awkward also. I finally ran out of excuses, and decided to go 'cuz Sarah went too ! Hahaha.

Teeheh, i think the first prayer group already gave me a pretty impression. & after the 2nd, 3rd, 4th time attending it, i decided to free this day from my schedule! What's more important than worshiping & praying for unsaved friends uh huh harz YOU TELL ME?! :D
I've nothing much to worry about, except for my family&some friends. Especially family, really hope they can come to know about Him real soon :/ Though i've tried time & time again. I WON'T GIVE UP. (: Hahaha! YOU YOU YOU AND YOU! So many. Haha.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I'm finally done with this long long post. It's 12.07am. Oh no, how long did i take to post this uh. *scrolls uppp! * Around half an hour hahahah! At least it's worth it. I hope friends having doubts about God, or you don't know how to accept Him, come join us for Prayer Group every Tues & Thurs kay! (:

Loves,

jermLIME. ( aww i miss this nickname given by yh. Hahaha XP )

p/s : Who doesn't agree with me that :

LOVE = RED X ♥ ( TO THE POWER OF INFINITY ) ?!?!?!!!!