So many things have been happening to me lately...It's so damn painful to accept the fact. Especially what's going on. In school & at home. I just gotta be happy, leave it to God. I know He has His plans...But sometimes i really can't stop but think about everything again. Friends like Denise, Gladys, Grace, Joy, Jovi have been with me through these, &i ought to thank them for cheering me up by being retarded :)

I really wonder where these problems are heading to. Are they gonna get better? Solved? Or will they just stay there forever? I don't wanna go through this, nobody understands how stupid & suckish it feels. :( I guess it's probably a different environment in PHS. New people, new characters. You'd be like " Man, this person is kewl & nicee! " Next minute you treat that person as one of your good friends. &you realised that he or she backstabbed you. Right. From. The. Back. I can't accept it. I'm one who treats people real niceeeee if they are niceeeeee. Same case for teachers. But this has to happen... I should try being more unfriendly & anti social damn it.

I went out with Denise & Yee Tat to city hall just now, cuz APS was kinda boring as we didn't have the right dressing to play basketball. We wanted to take pictures, so went to the underground, & Esplanade too. Called random people, watched people dance hip hop, making a fool out of ourselves in public. Sounds stupid & dumb, but i was happy :) Like for once, it disappeared. &when i thought it was gonna be a pretty ending, another issue started. I walked back home, started to think about every single thing that's going on. Lord, i really cannot take it anymore...

Lately, i've been waking up every morning. & i'd be like. I want it to be a better day than yesterday. It did, with my three girls :) I felt happy with them, and that only lasted till school ended. They have their own problems currently, especially Grace & Gladys. But they never fail to give me the support in which i need. :) At sucky times.

It's been years, not months or weeks. Don't you get how stupid it feels to let go & end it? You don't know what i'm going through, but i clearly know how stinkish it is to me. I saw you. I didn't know what to say. A word. Fullstop. &a smile.

I'm ending this post. I'll be happy from the next post onwards :)